I'm not the world's best LJ-er. Sometimes I go a week or more without getting online to check my flist. Sometimes I check it every day. And I love my flist! *pets you all* But community wise ... sometimes there's some slogging to do. Like this new community I joined. At first, there was great fic. Sure every once in a while you might get a crappy piece, but at least the odds were in your favor. But now, posting has slowed and there is one person who posts every day. Well, multiple times in a day. And it would be exciting if it was awesome, fun to read, well written stuff. But it's not (IMO). It's poorly characterized (gah! pet peeve right there) dreck, with awful grammar and is a bit cringe inducing overall.

Yikes. Okay, that sounds a bit harsh ...but true... I could just leave the community, but then I'll miss out on all the good stuff as no one in the comm is on my flist. Maybe I should just do it and truck to the comm to check for new posts of interest. I know boards often have a politeness caution about overposting. Do LJ comms ever have anything like this? Should I even ask the mod or just let it go? I don't want to cause any trouble ... but if it's bothering me it's probably bothering others too, right?

In completely unrelated news, today at work I wore my hair all sleeked back today with a little curly puff over a shoulder instead of my normal crazy fro - the horrors! But I got compliments! "Chic!" I somehow pulled off chic in scrubs! This is a true miracle. And yay! I have a new hairstyle! :)

Over the summer, one of the rehabbers I worked with got me hooked on Bret Michaels: Rock of Love. Because it was the scariest, most disturbing show we'd ever seen. I couldn't ever watch an entire episode, but I'd watch as much as possible and then at work we'd die laughing over all the awful, sketchy, whoredom that it was.

Oh, the trash.

I don't watch much reality tv, so I'm still a little new to the whole 'car-crash' tv concept. But that is this show: it is so slimy and so nasty and it's really hypnotizing in all its grossness.

(And yes, after keeping in some girl, Bret Michaels really did say: Ah, my Ukranian love tank ...)

*last season the girl who won was so obviously not really into him that it made it all just a little bit better. But watching this old man make out with a girl that's barely legal is just squickifying. Really. I can't believe these girls are all crazy enough to actually lurrrve Bret. And his icky, icky bandana too.

I can't remember if I have to be at work at 7am or 8am this morning. Which means I have to be there at 7, even though I'm almost positive that I'm scheduled at 8. Which means I lost out on an hour sleep. Which sucks.

Just a quick, meaningless gripe to start this Monday morning ...

This has been the week of people "understanding my minority experience". I've had three conversations in less than a week with people telling me "This one time, I was the only white person, surrounding by (Black, African, Chinese) people, and I realized that this is how people like you feel every day." I never know how to react to that. I always feel a certain frustration and pessimism when it comes to race relations in America. Like no matter how people try, maybe we really can't get along. Maybe we'll never be able to understand each other. Or maybe it's just too much effort to try. Or trying won't do anything except 'stir-the-pot' and most people would just prefer to not make waves thank-you-very-much.

I usually avoid 'race episodes' of tv shows, because they're so simplistic. Or they're simply bad. But FNL doesn't do simple. Or bad. And watching Smash graduate from the "don't make waves" school of thought was awesome. Mrs. Coach blew me away with all of her disappointment and sadness and shock at how quickly the school disintegrated. And the arguments/thoughts voiced in her forums are ones I've heard in so many "race forums", formal and informal.

They even tied it into Jason's struggles to be a normal student - "No one expects it of you". And God, how heartbreaking to be told everyone assumes you can't do something - especially if it's true?

Construction down the street is shaking my entire apartment. And I have a scratchy throat and sore legs from too much treadmilling. Everyone at work has some nasty virus with sinus infections, and I don't want to get sick. Maybe if I sauna for a while it'll knock the yuck out? Hmmm. Sauna ... nice ...